fuck this world

gloomy mornin

2006-08-29T08:04:00.000+08:00

i'm feelin very stoned this mornin. slept at 1 and woke up at 6.30. far less sleep than what my body requires. think it'll be one long day...

tmr's ah mah's bday. wonderin what we should get for her. a handphone? a digicam? or even a boyfriend. haha. ah mah, u wish. the only one possible present would be a boyfriend. as for the rest.. i'll get them for you when i hit my first million. serious. then you'll be one happy ah mah.

hmm... wonder when would that be anyway.... yes yes, i know i'm dreamin. but that's the motivation i need to carry on livin.

i miss everyone. :(

workin life isdeliously fabulous!

2006-08-28T15:11:00.000+08:00

oh my god! i juz realised i haven't blogged in almost 4 months! how time flies... it's been a crazy 3 weeks at work. it is juz so different but luckily things are so bad most of the time. ever since i started workin, i hardly go out with u people. time juz doesn't permit me too. sleep has become very impt. sleepin 7 hours every night is killer. but somehow i gotten used to it.

lots of things have changed over these 4 months... it's all about work now. and little play. damn! how i miss those days when i can slack around. all of u are like...so slack! which makes me real envious. give me the money and i'll go slack with u all!

and yes, i've decided to stop playin mj for awhile. it's bad. luck is bad. no good. i have better use of my $20 and time. tsk..

wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2006-04-30T01:40:00.000+08:00

i didn't realised it was almost a month since i last logged on. damn! u guys are like busy chattin on the tagboard and i didn't even know. haha.

hey cal...i'm so flattered that u like me. i like u too! but... i'll sacrifice and give u up so that u can go woo ah mah. i think ah mah likes u even more than i do. no wait, she loves you!!! and yes, where's that tons of presents u owe me since dunno when?? like when u say the followin monday u'll strike the $10m toto. everytime it's always the followin monday. don't understand why hasn't it happened??? or has it??? and u've squandered all the money away. that means.... u spent tens of millions of dollars!!!!! dammit! now u owe me a bungalow (bigger than pancake king's), a bmw, and juz $1billion for me to spend. that'll be the life. don't worry about you not havin enough money to spend, i'll have rooms ready in my bungalow for all of you. one person to a room. see my plans?? ok, get the cash ready!

ah mah, u don't be so wat, ok?!?! we all know ur exams ended liao. and ours haven't started. so...u be good. go out, earn some money and give us some for our pocket money. then next time, when we reach 85, we'll support you. we'll feed you, clothe you, and all. good??? if u need help in gettin a job, i could ask my dad (Bill Gates) to get a job on the Microsoft team. but sshhhh...don't tell anyone. otherwise they'll start buggin me. we've kept this secret for like...10 years. so don't blow it! since u're the first person i'm lettin the secret out to.

jerm... dun shop lah. u can shop till you drop and faint and vomit blood when we go for our long long trip. go study. u've got like...one paper left or sth izt??think ur last paper's on..next thursday. yeah anywayz, that's pretty soon. and u ah, juz now i call u go out for supper u din answer my call. neither did u reply my sms. all because of u, yk dun wanna go liao. coz he doesn't wanna go out with me alone. sad. i think he's juz using me as an excuse to see you. damn!
i'm sleepy. i'm going crazy. every night i'm juz thinkin of the upcomin trip. but sad.. it's a long way to go. ok, actually it's juz like...one and a half months to go. that means...it's exactly a month from today that my first paper begins!!!! shittified!

anywayz, all u people, go think what i can do during my 3 day break. from the time i end my paper on the 12th june. till the afternoon i head to bangkok on the 15th. jalene's asked me to go mambo on the 14th. i was thinkin...is it possible to play mahjong for that 3 WHOLE days?? we play till we have juz that little amount of energy left to make it to the airport. haha. we'll look like shit. madness!

oh... i juz found out today that kenneth went to hk! and he didn't even tell me! he didn't even ask me what i wanted from there! guess wat???he asked jun. unfair! *bish*

boring. boring. boring. i shall go dream of wat ah mah and calvin will be givin me real soon. my huge bungalow(remember, i want it to be bigger than pancake king's house!), my BMW, and my $1billion cash. ah mah, u settle with calvin the amount u have to fork out k. u two split the cost. yippee aiyo!!! lovely. now i can get a good night's sleep.

night night.

reveal of su-lin's crush

2006-04-04T09:46:00.000+08:00

sleepy. woke up at 6.30am. slept last night at 7.30pm. 11 hours of sleep!!!! but still sleepy. seriously, my body clock is so screwed up to the point of no return. haha.

you know, about wat i said the last time...su-lin's crush... it's no other than daniel zhang! the guy i used to like in oi.. the guy who went steady with deirdre. yeah, i didn't know he liked su-lin for such a long time liao. i have a feelin the crush started in oi. but it's a pity she isn't straight.

another guy kinda popped up in my life. he's a really nice guy. from class. but i dunno how this would work out. don't really wanna repeat what i had gone thru' before. thing is, he knows i've got a bf. oh well, it's too early to say anythin.

oh...the previous guy....ervin... he's got a gf already! that's pretty fast considerin what he claimed, that i was the one and all that shit. hah. nah, this ain't sour grapes. it's like he falls for girls real easily. so this ain't real love, like what he claimed. ok enough said. the past is the past. don't wanna bring it up anymore.

oh yeah, we played mahjong at my house the other day. i lost $9. now they're playin bigger stakes. upgrade from 10-20 cents to 20-40 cents. we played our record-breaking of 3 dongs in a single day. cool! we should try 4 dongs the next time. but that will prob be after our exams. to be exact, prob after yk's and jerm's exams. haha. yk was the sole winner that night. eh, maybe jalene won too. maybe she broke even after treatin us to a plate of sotong. haha. but that tasted pretty good. thanks jal!

back to the books now. study hard people!

bummer

2006-03-29T23:28:00.000+08:00

i spent the whole day sleepin again. i'm such a bummer. just found out yesterday that one of my oi frenz had a crush on su-lin all this while. haha. he said su-lin's unpretentious and .. i can't remember the other adjective. yeah anywayz... i shan't tell u who that person is. unless of course.... u bribe me. hahahaha. erm, yes of course i'm talkin about our su-lin. tan su-lin. and he said she isn't straight. i mean, i thought she is already. hmmm...

you know, i'm home almost everyday. all i see everyday are my family members, my baby girl, and the tv. oh yes, and occassionally, my books. Countdown: 61 more days till the exam commences!!! seems like time's passin far too quickly for me to utilise it.

well, i'm sleepy now. shall go to bed. goodnite people.

in a daze

2006-03-27T11:12:00.000+08:00

i failed to turn back my body clock. it's still so screwed up. i didn't sleep the night before, and went to bed only at 3pm. i slept all the way till....1+am. couldn't go back to sleep. so i'm up till now.wonderin if i should go sleep coz i'm in a daze. but probably not. not even sure if i'll be going for my 2pm class. it's only one n a half hours though.

im rather proud of myself. did my corporate finance this mornin. after watchin a movie on hbo. very nice. it's called brooke ellison story, or sth like that. not too sure. it's based on a true story. she had an accident when she was 11. and was paralysed neck down ever since. she did well in her life.quite a sad movie.

anywayz, i found this very nice chinese song. dunno wat's the title. it sounds very cute. it's by some group called wang fu yue tuan. and i've been repeatin this track for the past hour. haha. think i'm drivin mad. i wanna drill the damn song into my head.

hmm...so borin. but well, gonna go do my work now.

all smiles

2006-03-23T03:29:00.000+08:00

today's a much better day than before. went out with yumin and adrian to lau par sat for dinner. we sat at the satay club there. so smoky lor. i prob have the satay smell.

missed class again today. all coz it rained. i know i'm such a lazy bum. will be gg tmr. it's like.. i've got class from 2-8.15pm. very tiring leh...considerin i haven't been to school for a way way long time. meetin oi people for supper after that. dim sum. at geylang. it's also to celebrate calvin's birthday. i'm not sure if i've mentioned these in the previous post. i'm so excited. yummy food + great people. jalene, yk, jerm, gwynne, calvin, chris + gf, daryl, n me! this is like...gonna be the highest attendance in awhile. coz of this chris...got gf already then stopped going out with us. daryl also. gf too possessive of him. elvin will be in camp (aww...so sad) haha.

still haven't heard from dree yet. i hope she's alright. she's going thru some problems but doesn't wanna tell me about it. that's alright girl, but i juz wanna let u know that i'm always here for you.

you know...my cousin kenneth has been askin jun out. without me. haha. scandalous! but i still love them both! *muakz*

boo!

2006-03-22T02:47:00.000+08:00

i've been slackin on updatin my blog again. lazy lah. very troublesome. anywayz, things aren't going so good for me right now. firstly, there's no mahjong for me! i wanna play but can't find enough people. secondly, jun n dree so busy with their work; no time for me. thirdly, things are bad between jason n i. sigh. i guess these will always be the main few problems i'll encounter.

studied today. yay! but i felt so restless after dinner. juz couldn't sit down. i guess it's pms.
alrite, i'm bored so i shan't write anymore.

rules from the male side.

2006-03-09T05:00:00.000+08:00

Hey this is somthin interestin i found! read it!

it totally shows the insensitiveness of guys. s e r i o u s l y.

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We always hear "the rules" from the female side. Now here are the rules from the male side.

These are our rules:

• Breasts are for looking at and that is why we do it. Don't try to change that

• Learn to work the toilet seat.

You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down. We need it up, you need it down.

You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.

• Saturday = sports. It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be

• Shopping is NOT a sport. And no, we are never going to think of it that way.

• Crying is blackmail.

• Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one:

• Subtle hints do not work!

• Strong hints do not work!

• Obvious hints do not work!

•JUST SAY IT!

• ‘Yes’ and ‘No’ are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question

• Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do.
Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for

• A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem. See a doctor

• Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument.
In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 days

• If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't ask us

• If something we said can be interpreted two ways, and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one

• You can either ask us to do something or tell us how you want it done

• Not both

• If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself

• Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during commercials

• Christopher Columbus did not need directions and neither do we

• ALL men see in only 16 colours, like Windows default settings.

•Peach, for example, is a fruit, not a colour. Pumpkin is also a fruit.

•We have no idea what mauve is.

• If it itches, it will be scratched. We do that.

• If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," we will act like nothing's wrong.
We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle

• If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, expect an answer you don't want to hear.

• When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine, Really

• Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as:

• Sex,
• Sport, or
• Cars
• You have enough clothes
You have too many shoes
• I am in shape. Round is a shape.

Thank you for reading this; Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight, but did you know men really don't mind that?

It's like camping.

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feelin fit

2006-03-09T04:27:00.000+08:00

i finally went for a jog after like...centuries!! haha. feelin so fit now. but while i was runnin i felt like i was gonna die. yes yes, you guessed it! i didn't run for long. juz 2 rounds around butterfly avenue. that's all. hey, but it was approximately 1.2km k!! so it's not bad for a start. think my legs will ache like mad tmr. and i made my dog run one round with me! haha

supposed to go zouk. audrey told me she couldnt make it in the afternoon. at that time i thought, ok, doesn't matter. didn't really feel like going at that moment. then after that she told me she can make it at 11,12mn. but we still didn't go. i should have gone to meet her. but think she's busy with trainin up her magnum cheerleadin team and would be too tired after supportin her team in their flips. doesn't matter girl. i'm fine with it. not angry or watever.

i've decided not to go for my social psychology mock paper this friday. haven't studied enough. tmr i have to sit down and study real hard. been missin out on alot of studyin. weird thing is, after studyin, i actually feel very knowledgable, hence would feel happy. so this tells me, if i wanna be happy, juz study more. haha

jun's going clubbin this friday with her 2 cousins. and she asked me to go along. together with my cousin kenneth, and some of her other frenz. i feel like going. wanna party like mad. but my oi frenz might be going out on friday evenin. prob to drink. i wanna get drunk! really pissed drunk! well, since things are not confirmed, i dun really know which should i go to.

i wanna play mahjong really bad! lost to jerm last night. coz we went for supper at bedok 85. jerm, yk, jerm's bf, and i. then after that yk n i sent jerm and her beau back to the hall, and she suggested playin mahjong. so we played. from 2-5am. and we were dead tired. i lost $3.10. yk lost $4 i think. yeah, jerm was the biggest winner. she's really improvin lots man. guess she's paid enough tuition fees to jalene and yk. haha. good for u jerm!

i'm supposed to be asleep ages ago. but as usual, i'm still up. juz wastin my time away. seriously i can't carry on doing this. it's like...my exams are 82 days away, i think. and that's not alot of time to cover 4 modules. i wanna get at least an average of B. but preferably As for corporate finance and management maths. it should be possible if i study real hard for them. coz these 2 modules are more mathematical, and that's my forte. study study study. so interestin. *sigh* but no choice...

intoxicated

2006-03-06T01:17:00.000+08:00

i'm so fucking drunk. i've had 6 shots of tequila so far... everythin's a mess in my life. i really dunno wat to do.im so pissed off at everythin that's happenin to me. the only thing i've enjoyin right now is the company of my oi frenz. totally. my best friends is so busy... dunno wat they up to.sigh. i wish i could juz have someone to confide in...

re-energised with love.

2006-03-01T03:11:00.000+08:00

ok, i'm gettin real lazy at this. too lazy to log in and write. but i'll try, i promise.

updates updates... i haven't sat for my mock paper yet. monday was supposed to be company law.but, i was too tired and lazy and unprepared to go for it. have got management maths paper tmr, i'm still considerin if i should go. i haven't been studyin consistently. seriously, everyday startin tmr, i'm gonna study really hard. no time already. it's like, if i don't study now, i might never have a chance to do so in future. yes yes, i know you've heard this from me so many times before about me wantin to study hard. this time it's for real k!!!

anywayz, i'm so happy coz jason spent the night with me again! haha. well, we haven't been talkin much since the last time we met and i was very unhappy with his work and stuff, so he made it a point to spend some time with me. love him!!! well, but now his off day's over, so it'll prob be back to the same old routine again.

hey girls!!! i haven't heard much from u guys. jun, i think u're busy with ur resume and all right? think if u don't find a job soon, ur parents will prob kick u outta the house, since u've been bummin around for 2 months. dree, i think u're busy with ur magnum cheerleadin sessions. hope everythin is still ok between u and him.

well, i'm gonna check outta here now. hey! this reminds me....beyonce's song CHECK ON IT is really cool. go check it out. it's the pink panther soundtrack. so, if u do get hold of it, i want a copy too! love y'all.

tired as usual

2006-02-18T00:13:00.000+08:00

i realised i haven't written anythin for like...a WEEK!!!that's long! anywayz, i woke up early this mornin to tutor my spoilt brat neighbour! she gave me a really bad attitude today and that made me super pissed. spoilt my mornin. DAMMIT!

ah anywayz, at least i went out with kenneth and jun. spent the whole day at kenneth's house. playin mahjong while watchin dvd. i watched honey for the UPTEENTH time.... but still...the show's great! hahaha. i finally went for a dip in the water but both of them didn't wanna join me. instead, they sat by the poolside. so i was like an idiot in the water. ggrrrr.. yeah anywayz, we had dinner at bedok blk 85. ate so much. as usual. you know, seriously, i'm puttin on alot of weight recently. with my late night suppers and heavy dinners as well as snackin thru'out the day. i really need to start losin weight.

plus juz not too long ago, my srjc canoeing fren, cyril, called me to inform me to go for a steamboat gatherin at marina bay this sunday evenin. see! eat again! how to lose weight????

my baby doggy is baldin!!! my treasure cutey honey!!! she's bittin and scratchin off her hair. dunno how come she's feelin so itchy...for ur info....I BATHE HER ONCE A WEEK K!!!! so she's clean! don't come and tell me she's dirty. yeah anywayz, i'm so sad... one of her ear's baldin too!!! sigh. don't know how to help her. do i have to get her vitamins or somethin? i have no idea.

oh btw, i almost forgot about the vday thingy! it was so borin! i was at school studyin, juz waitin for him to call me and then i'd leave school to meet him. original plan: meet at 5pm OUTSIDE MY SCHOOL. yeah anywayz, he was late. met at about 6! he made me buy movie tickets before i went to school. yeah, the show was jarhead at 7pm. so....we ate at pastamania. and then went for the movie. i was already so pissed at him for turnin up so late. i mean, it's not the first time lor! he always gives me a time then changes it when that time comes. it's so irritatin! ok, but this time round he said someone came last minute for the interview he was conductin. ok.. then after the movie, he was holdin the coke and prob like 2 drops of it spilt on my leg as we were walkin down to the ground floor. i told him. and he juz looked at me and then looked away. damn! couldn't he juz say sorry? i mean, it's not a big deal, but...basic courtesy right? his reply to me was...."why are you so particular??" sigh. i thought to myself too. dunno wat's wrong with me. i have been rather short tempered towards him lately. it's quite unfair. but i think it's coz i don't like his work. it steals him away from me. it's like...i have a boyfriend but he's almost never there. it's quite sad, really. i guess i miss him alot.

alright, this entry's long enough. guess i got carried away.

tired

2006-02-10T01:33:00.000+08:00

it's been one whole long day out. was out for like....12 hours! it was school ffrom 2 to 8.15pm. then i went out with cousins kenneth and ryan.

know wat?!?! i finally removed my nost stud! did i mention it? don't think so right! i removed it yesterday before headin for class. told jason just now and he was like..."finally!". he said i didn't look nice with it. hmmm...was it that bad? coz i thought i looked alrite with it. i mean, it wasn't much of a diff. watever man!

the stupid mock exams are approachin...27 feb. and i'm not even ready for it. there's too much nonsense to cover. damn, if only i hadn't been so slack the past few months. oh well, what's done is done. just gotta work hard from now on. i feel the drive; the motivation to study! yeah! tmr i'm prob gonna go to school to study for a few hours before tutorial. sigh. gotta cut down on my outings man. i'm like going crazy.

hmmm...think i'm comin down with flu. it sucks man. prob caught it from jason or my cousin. both of them are sick. hey...v'day is comin! and jason only has time for me in the evenin. there goes my plan... i initially wanted to go sunset bay to laze on the beach, and then go out after that. it's a rather nice thought. but he hasn't got time this week. so i'm gettin jun to go with me. but prob next week. jun has got a date. busy busy girl. i've been wantin to go sunset bay for a very long time liaoz. it's great to go there on weekdays, not so crowded.

ok, i need to go shower and sleep liaoz. very tired. here's me signin off with love....

long time

2006-02-08T12:31:00.000+08:00

alrite. i've finally decided to get a new blog address coz my sister was checkin my old one. and i felt quite restricted about my freedom of speech. anywayz, all thanks to swany for pesterin me to go update my blog. haha. now, i finally got this started.

anywayz, i'm back with jason. everythin's supposedly good now, tho i still get annoyed by his work. u know, i haven't even gone to his house to bai nian yet. it's like he doesn't seem to want me to go. maybe i'm his mistress or somethin! he doesn't invite me to his house. and when i say i wanna go he just rejects me. i dunno wat's up with him. anywayz, his mum will probably think i'm rude or somethin coz i din go bai nian. the only time i went to his house was last chinese new year. damn. i don't even know if i made a right decision of being with him.

poor jun and dree. i've been burdenin them with my chaotic life problems. thanks very much girls! i love u both very much! anywayz, no mention of the past k. it's all over. history. gotta sign off now, have to make a call.

ciaoz.